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I'm never good at telling people how I really feel, so now i'm writing it down.
I believe in karma, and I knew at the first place it would hit me someday. Maybe that 'someday' is now...
I never thought that you, you who always have sweetest thing to say, who can make my days, could put me to my lowest. Is it because i'm not good enough for you? Gosh.. I always start crying everytime I think of how painful it was. It's so hard to look okay when I know i'm not. I might not be the romantic one, i'm not the best of the best, but I love you I really do. I dont know if 'love' is enough for you, only you and God know..

Black. Blue. Black. Blue.

Those are my mood now. Thanks for the last 3 years. I've been such a fool. Call me 'big fat liar', but i've had enough.

I Miss You - Incubus

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three fold Utopian dream

You do something to me
That I can't explain
So, would I be out of line
If I said, "I miss you?"

I see your picture I smell your skin
On the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away

I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know
That I care and I miss you
I miss you...

this is the truth

Maroon 5 - Never Gonna Leave This Bed

berawal dari browsing di Google tentang Adam Levine (who is totally the hottest vocalist on this planet uwuwuwu ♥), ga sengaja aku nemuin lagu Never Gonna Leave This Bed dari Maroon 5. ngeliat kok judulnya lucu (ngeeek -____-") hehe makanya aku coba download. pertama didengerin awalnya biasa aja dan ga interest sama sekali sama lagu ini, tapi semakin lama aku jadi suka! tiap berangkat sekolah, istirahat jam pertama, istirahat jam kedua, jam kosong, pulang sekolah, mau tidur, mau ngapain aja selalu ada headset di telinga yang setia muterin lagu ini. saking cintanya sama lagu ini aku juga download video sama versi acoustic nya. love it!

click here to download the song!

click here to download the acoustic version!

If I were with Adam I would never leave the bed either hehe :p

I AM NOBODY

jam 3:38, pulang dari sekolah dengan wajah kuyu, lesu. di rumah cuma ada eyang, pembantu dan Jonsi, makanan aja ga ada. bingung mau ngapain akhirnya kepikiran curhat di blog. and here i am, nulis cerita ga penting dengan diiringi lagu dari Eric Benet feat. Tamia - Spend My life With You di winamp. such a romantic song, isn't it? bener-bener jauh beda sama yang aku rasain sekarang...

I never knew such a day could come

baris pertama dari lirik lagu Spend My life With You, yang bisa diartikan dalam lagu ini kalo orang yang ada di lagu ini ga pernah nyangka ketemu pasangannya. kalo diartikan buat aku, buat hari ini, aku ga pernah nyangka bakal sakit hati dua kali. DUA KALI!!! cok banget kan.

yayayayaya aku tau aku bukan siapa-siapamu, bener deh aku sadar, tapi please pikir pake otak, you took me so high and now you let me really, and i mean REALLY, down. aku ngerti aku juga bodoh bisa segitu gampangnya percaya sama kamu, padahal temen-temenku udah bilang banyak hal negatif tentang kamu, kamu sering mainin cewek lah, suka bohong lah, ini lah, itu lah, taek lah, back then, i just ignored 'em. goblok ya? :') ha ha

so now, i'll set you free :) go find somebody else, and i know you're good at it HA HA

Track of the Month

THE SCRIPT - Breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah

I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no